Dresses and Visitors

Last night, I had a few visitors, Ann and Tony came for a drink after dinner. A little later Erin arrived. We talked about the wedding, They proposed other site for the reception but I think it would be only more troubles because we would have to rent and coordinate so many suppliers that it would drive me crazy and stress me out. I want to enjoy that day. When I talked to Mike about it, he still sticks by the Baldachin. Works with me.
When Ann and Tony left, Erin and I started looking in my magazine and on the internet for dresses and other bride stuff. I am getting frustrated, it seems like every time I found a dress I like and that I would like to try it, it is either not available in Canada or there is no close around here or in Montreal that carries it.
Here are the two I like so far:
Alfred Angelo #1816
David's Bridal #3019
Simple but with something that make them special ; embroideries or lace.
I will need to go try a few before I can make up my mind. I have a couple friends that will come with me if I shop around here and I would go with Jeannette, ma Marianne (my godmother) et Josée if I shop in Montreal. I would like to do both. Will see!

All better

I talked to the jeweler , Everything is fine they will make my ring a little bigger. It took a while to explain, I don't know why nobody seems to understand... I thought I was clear. Anyway, I should have my ring next week. Can't wait!

A mountain out of nothing

Yesterday Mike was briging back my engagement ring to the jeweler, the color was golden because they forgot to put some kind of glaze on it so it looks white. I also asked that they make it a little bigger... I guess that Mike did not present it that way because the lady said that they could not do it... When Mike called me to tell me about it, it was 9:00PM and the store was closed so I could not call them to discuss the issue... I made a fuss about why he did not call me right when it happened, I would have been able to clarify my request. The whole thing got out of hands when I started telling Mike that in the future he should call me right away so we can solve things and move on... He got all quiet and that is when I start feeling insecure. I really don't like talking on the phone but when he works that's the only way... Anyway, the call ended . I had to call him back and asked about how he felt, he said persecuted. We talked a little more. He said that the ring was only a bunch of problem and I explain that it was not. I needed to be reassured that he did not think that I was going crazy and control freak, that he did not change his opinion about me. With the wedding preparative, I am worried that similar situations happen and that we will get in the same situation. I told him that I love him and he said the same. He said that he was trying not to react with his old pattern... I should work on that too. I am still feeling a little funny, misunderstood and worried about what he is thinking. This morning it felt better but I will have a better feeling tomorrow since I will see him for more than 10 minutes. Last night I bought my first Bridal magazine... Lost of good references, I will have to go through it again and again and look at the website they recommended... I need to call the jeweler now.

A little blue on this rainy cold day

I guess it is not helping my mood that yesterday I picked up my engagement ring after having it resized, first I found it too small... they make it oval so it is squishing my finger and when I got out of the store, I realised that the white gold is not so white anymore... It has a golden tint in it. I did not see it because of the lights they have in the store, the diamond looked stunning so I did not notice the gold color. Anyway, I had to give it back this morning, Mike will drop it at the store on his way to work. I will have to wait another week or so before I can wear it ... Forever, I know.

I am not his girlfriend anymore!

That's it, I am not Mike's girlfriend anymore... I am his fiancée. I am so excited Mike asked me to marry him today! Very simply, after a nice walk by the river and a French toast breakfast, he comes from behind and hugs me. He asks "Would you marry me?" I answered " You know I want to marry you" he replies " this is the real question" I turn around and he presents me with THE little box... the ring is perfect, I would not been able to pick better. I looked on the internet to try to find one that would look like it and I could link it but nothing looks like it, Wonderful! He is not shaved and in jeans, he told me "here I am, that is what you are going to have everyday for the rest of you life, I am not going to change" It is what you see is what you get with him and I am happy about it. We have a very long hug and I asked him if he was sure about his decision and he say "yes". We started talking about what we wanted for the wedding, before the proposal I felt it was almost taboo. I did not want him to feel pressure to get married from me. There is a lot of things that we both want. His dad called a little later and we invited him over to let him know about the news. I called my dad to let him know too. he was happy for us and congratulated us. I can't wait to see him I could not wait to show my ring to somebody and his dad took forever to arrive. I can't stop looking at my ring, it is so pretty... When he finally showed up, Mike was not there he went for a run. I wanted to let him announce it to his dad so we waited for him. When he showed up, I put my ring on and he told his dad. Tony got a few discrete tears. He is really happy for us. Mike and I went for dinner to a nice Indian restaurant, Little Indian Café, delicious as usual and went to see a movie: The Incredibles... Not romantic, very good animation film. We had a great time... as usual! I don't feel different... yet ;o) On the way home, I called my sister and my brother to let them know the great news, they were at my dad's. They congratulated us but Maxime D had to say " Are we going to be invited?" ... no comments. My Max broke up with his girlfriend what a bad timing for a celebration. We talked for a while, I think he will be fine. I was a little worried, I thought that she would have been the one who would have broke up but it seems like it is him. It is a weird timing because we met about the same time as them... I guess it was a turning point for each of our relationships.

Weekend and outcomes

I had a great time, I had my get together with some of Ann’s friends... Lots of "girls", felt good to chat. The average age was older than me other than Sarah, I am pretty sure I was the youngest. I wished I could have stayed longer but I had to go back home to welcome "Moushka's parents". I was home at 9:20PM and they arrived at 10:00. Moushka was really happy to see them. The youngest kid 915 month-old) did not recognize her and it took him until the next day to warm up to her but then they were the best friends. The little girl is older (3 y-o) and she mentioned a few times if they could bring back home Moushka. That made me feels a little uncomfortable. Nancy also said a few things about missing her a lot and all that… but it is too late, they can’t take her back. Everything was very subtle so maybe it is just me. We didn’t do much, lunch at Coco’s, drive through town (it was raining) lovely dinner at home and walks with Moushka. They left early on Sunday. Mike and I did our own stuff for a little while. Tony came for lunch. When he left, we worked on the muscle testing but it was not working … or anyway I was not feeling it so we just talked about us, it was great. Then we went for a long walk in the woods. It was wonderful to enjoy the fresh air. We only got 2 trick-or-treaters, our little neighbours… so Mike ate all the chocolates when it got too late for anybody to visit. I asked Mike if he will marry me this weekend, he answered by a uh-hum… not a real yes and said that I should keep on working on my affirmation/programming. So this morning… I started thinking too much, my period is around the corner, and I asked him if he though that if I keep on doing my affirmation (it is for get rid of my abandonment issues), I would not feel the need to get married. He was really sweet and he said that he would marry me and that he knew that I will always want to get married but then he asked all the questions I did not want to hear… Should I ask your dad? Should he ask as a surprise or a special occasion? How much should he spend on the ring? … Yuh-uh! I don’t want to answer that! I told him to do as he feels and to ask a friend if he wants advises. I wanted to be reassured about the proposal… Don’t ask for it, it might just happened!